I ditched my home internet provider!

Two reasons.

First, the service sucks! I would have ditched it a long time ago but I was bound by a two-year contract. Ngayong natapos na yung contract ko, bye-bye internet na.

Second, I’m looking for ways to save! Nadadalas kasi ang dalaw ko sa aking hair dresser kaya kailangan humanap ng area na pwedeng i-sacrifice so I can afford my regular hair cut. Nagpaikli na naman kasi ako ng buhok eh. Many would agree that I look better with short hair and besides it’s easier to manage. Hindi na ako araw-araw gumagamit ng hair dryer.

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Riccardo, my Italian officemate, gave me a copy of Adele’s songs. She’s good! I like her style and her voice. I can hardly believe it when he told me that Adelle is only 23. Whew! What a talented young woman. Paulit-ulit kong pinapatugtog yung album nya.

Adele Addict! Adele Addict!

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I received an email from someone yesterday. Well, it’s been a long while since I last heard from him. Hindi ko na nga inaasahan na magpaparamdam sya eh. Not after the not-so-nice discussion we had weeks ago.

Anyway, he just wanted to say hello. Maybe he just wanted to know if I’m still alive.

Fair enough.

wise words

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first pay cheque.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. Live one day at a time, for no one knows what’s in store for tomorrow.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative - dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."

By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland, Ohio.

on being alone (again!)

There are days when the reality of losing my closest friend hits me really hard. I think it will take some time to get used to the fact that I can’t run to him anymore when I’m lonely or when I need someone to talk to. That’s not how the rules of “it’s over” work.

I know it’s just fear. Fear of being alone again. Fear of not having a helper. Fear of not having someone to share your happiness or loneliness with. But at the end of the day, it's just fear. Yes, I can feel fear but HE who loves me is greater and real than my fears.

I saw this poem on fear while surfing the net.

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I feared being alone
Until I learned to like Myself.
I feared failure
Until I realized that I only Fail when I don't try.
I feared success
Until I realized that I had to try in order to be happy with myself.

I feared people's opinions
Until I learned that people would have opinions about me anyway.
I feared rejection
Until I learned to have faith in myself.
I feared pain
Until I learned that it's necessary for growth.

I feared the truth
Until I saw the ugliness in lies.
I feared life
Until I experienced its beauty.
I feared death
Until I realized that it's not an end, but a beginning.

I feared my destiny,
Until I realized that I had the power to change my life.
I feared hate
Until I saw that it was nothing more than ignorance.
I feared love
Until it touched my heart, making the darkness fade into endless sunny days.

I feared ridicule
Until I learned how to laugh at myself.
I feared growing old
Until I realized that I gained wisdom every day.
I feared the future
Until I realized that Life just kept getting better.
I feared the past
Until I realized that It could no longer hurt me.

I feared the dark
Until I saw the beauty of the starlight.
I feared the light
Until I learned that the Truth would give me Strength.
I feared change,
Until I saw that even the most beautiful butterfly had to undergo a Metamorphosis before it could fly.

sushi me!

I now know how to make sushi! Whohoooo!

Would you believe that when I was still in the Phils you would never catch me feasting on sushi? Just one sushi roll and that would be enough for me to run to the toilets to throw up.

I don’t know what happened to my taste buds but suddenly I craved for sushi. Sushi! Ssushi! Sushi! Sushi is all I could think of, especially this past weeks.

Instead of spending a couple of dollars every now and then to satisfy my cravings, I decided to buy the ingredients and make them myself. The result? I’m having sushi almost every day now!

Yum! Yum!

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The first fruits of my chili plant!

After more than a year of tender loving care, it finally decided to reward me for my efforts.

Here’s to more chilies in the future!!!

white flag

I’ve reached that point where I am now willing to face reality. No more illusions. No more hoping for changes that will never eventuate. No more looking at the past with rose-coloured glasses.

Now that I already have the closure I needed, it’s time to end this chapter, to leave the past behind and move forward.

I’ve awaken from my deep slumber.

I deserve God's best and you're not it.